I have a secret

I am a girl and I have a secret, since I was 11 or 12 years old. I never told it to anyone, including my best friends or my mother. I had a very high sex drive, when I saw some porn. I can felt a pulse in my vulva, and I felt very strong urges to do something. No one teach me what to do, it is instinct by my nature. I lay down bed on my face, and made my vulva rubbed against bed backwards and forwards, until I got a spasm, it always last about 10 seconds. After that, I lost my interest in sex immediately and I felt sleepy very very much. Usually I roll over and go to sleep right away without any cleanness. This game has been with me for over a decade. I nearly have to do it once a day. Sometimes I am alone in my house, I can do several times one day. Once I did it 28 times a week, because I saw the kiss scene by two people in an American TV. I was moved by them, by their love, their true love. I did it 4 times every night, lasted whole 1 week, because the next episode only showed in the next week. Subsequently in the second week, I go to toilet 20 times a day, and more seriously I peed little and without any force. I was not worried for a long time, because the third week I almost cover back.  

   I write my experience to so-called sexologists, but they treat me like a shit. Even they tell me maybe it is a lump or tumor, when I say I can touch little balls in my labia majora.

Oh, my fucking God. Why are they so adamant? They even never give me a chance to show them. They treated what I said like bullshit. 

   Before Copernicus proposed heliocentric, all people thought earth was the center of the universal. Two guys wanted to build a thing called an airplane. Ridiculous, right? Are these all science fictions? 

   All I am asking is for those experts to have the tiniest bit of vision.

   God bless me!