2012年11月6日星期二

Peaceful Tampa 第二天

经过近20个小时的倒时差和晕机,我终于恢复了一点精力。以前在所里的时候,还计划着去warmart大采购,还刺激小慧慧说美国的巧克力多便宜多便宜,我去了就猛吃巧克力。可是我已经2天没有吃东西了,但是一点都不饿,一点没有吃东西的欲望。

刚刚又给老妈打电话了,后面听到老妈快哭了,我就赶紧挂了,我怕我的眼泪也止不住留下来了。老妈问我一切是否顺利,我只能说“谋事在人,成事在天了”。我估计在Tampa我是不能得到好的结果了,甚至连和说话的机会都没有,只有等到New wark 去见Beverly了。如果在失败就打电话看能不约到巴尔的摩或是圣迭戈的了,如果再不行,我就放弃了,我不打算再这样折腾了,我真的太想家了,太想老妈了,也想卷和小糖糖,小慧慧和小兹兹牙的宝贝儿子,老宋。

好好在Tampa享受一下吧,本来准备今天去clearwater的,自行车都借好了,但是天公不作美,刚出去雨就下大了,我就回来了。等雨小一点在去逛逛吧。明天不知道有没有时间了,要不今天去沃尔玛和best buy给老宋看摄像机吧。

现在是美国东部时间下午6:28,我刚刚从外面回来,早上雨下了1个多小时就停了,我还是骑着自行车出门了。如何形容我眼中的Tampa呢?第一个在我脑子里出现的词就是三亚,但是由于还有Miami的存在,那Tampa只有屈居为海口吧。早上出门的时候还阴云密布,一会就晴空万里了,这是海边城市的通病。

Tampa几乎全是这样的树,无论从地理位置还是气候结构都和海南十分相似。都位于祖国大陆的最南端。

 我顺着Tampa ST一路向南骑行,因为是下坡,所以一点都不累,让我惊奇的发现,视线中居然出现汉字了,太激动了,有一种找到组织的感觉了,我现在真正可以体会到一代移民有多么不容易了。因为当时还在犹豫要不要去Clearwater,怕耽误时间就没有进去。

小慧慧和卷,你们看看这美帝国主义的School bus.别羡慕,这命你们羡慕不来的。看起来就是特坚硬的那种,估计重型皮卡都很难让它彻底变形。
走着走着看见权利机关了,哈哈哈,想想我这个不坚定的共产主义国家来的坏分子需不需要进去主动交代点什么??顺便请我喝个警察局的咖啡!
卷,你看看这是啥?我一天看到了2辆你的车。来到美国不得不说的就是车,太多太多的
劳斯莱斯,奔驰,宝马,跑车了。那种在电影里看到的情景原来是真的,就是一个黑帅哥
坐在一个白色跑车里,那Hipop的音乐放到最大在你身边疾驰而去。
这是连接Tampa和Kennedy Blvd的桥,中间是只穿Tampa南北的一条河。莫非有人在这里殉情,才会有这样的标语?

著名的喜来登酒店就在Tampa河边上,要不一晚上能砍你1000-2000RMB吗?By the way, Tampa只有在Downtown里才有这样的高层。在我们中国人都羡慕能上摩天大楼的时候,美国人都是独门独户的,下面到居民区就特别明显了。

以Tampa命名的本地大学,不晓得如何?因为没有联系过任何在Tampa university的教授,所以我也没有进去。
我顺着Kennedy Blvd 一直往西骑行,走走走走走啊走,终于看到了传说中的穷人的天堂Wal-mart.我恨不得杀了进去。啊,东西真的很便宜啊,巧克力基本在1-2美元之间,大瓶的洗发水5美元,面包1-2美元一包,我因为要给老宋去买相机不想拿太多东西,就只拿了包牛奶,我的天啊,我求一个客人帮我拿的,我比划了半天他好像很明白似的,告诉我酸奶就是这个,结果出来一喝发现时豆浆牛奶。我晕倒!因为要坐车需要零钱,我特地没有刷行用卡,想让她给我找钱。我的天啊,美国硬币谁发明的25cents,我一顿狂算才把钱算对。顺便看看我的座驾吧。by the way,沃尔玛真的不环保啊,居然还用塑料袋,而且是特别差的那种,没骑多久,那个袋子就破了。忘了说了,这包奶大约2L,上面写的是“有机奶”,很一般一点都不甜,咱们这种喝惯了各种口味添加剂的中国人不是太适应,标价2.5美元,结算的时候收了我2.67元,我算了一下福罗里达州的税率是6.8%。在沃尔玛工作的几乎都是黑妹妹和黑帅哥,不过人都Nice,也没有向中国超市到处都是服务员你可以问,爱买不买。沃尔玛里还提供套餐服务,标价5.89元,就是咱们中国的盒饭,几荤几素的那种,不过好多肉啊,美国菜不比肉便宜。不过身体还处于晕机状态的我决定再多恢复1天吧。我想等我回家了,我老妈看见我瘦了,肯定埋怨美帝国主义不给我吃的呢。哈哈哈哈
终于看到老宋的Bestbuy了,发现好像只卖手机?Go to the Bayshore Blvd

看看美国人的居住区吧。一个字“静”,全是这样1-2层的私家建筑,太祥和了。


终于到达McKay Bay.

我又继续转向Davis Island.累死老娘了,但是风景真的很美很美。到处都能看到小松鼠在马路上和树干上攒跳。



这什么鸟不知道,但是当我走进的时候,它一动不动,我刚开始还以为是个鸟的雕塑呢。这里真的是人与自然太和谐了。
这应该就是David Island的东海岸线了,妈呀,太美了,对面就是一个个的私家小院,湖边停着自己的游艇。我在湖边坐了很久,想了很久,就这样人民生活的如此安逸幸福,在去扯什么共产主义解救全世界生活在资本主义制度下水生火热的人民是不是太2B了。可惜,有些人就是希望自己的人民越2B越好。




 福罗里达州可是支持Obama的,这个标志随处可见。
So many boats.




老宋,你看人家这仙人掌长的。你看看你的!同样都是一个品种,一个生活在处处限制的盆里,而且还以保护你安全为理由把你圈在屋里,一个生活在自由的土壤里,让你接受四季带给你的考验,让你自己适应外界的世界,咋就差距那么大呢??

2012年11月5日星期一

热情的美帝国主义的第一天

今天是我到Tampa的第一天,我现在可以说是精疲力尽了。但是我还是想把这一切的一切记录下来,主要是还要等我老妈的电话。
从乌鲁木齐出发,我可以感觉到老妈深深的不舍,我第一次离开家哭了,而且哭的自己控制不了,我也看见老妈哭的很凶。这不只是对理想对信念的执着,而且是对未来的忧虑和担心。我到北京后做地铁去晶瑞那里,我就开始晕车,心里就有一点点后悔的念头了,我这是干什么,我可以生活的安逸,可以去滑雪,可以去游泳,我干什么这么折腾我自己。到了晶瑞家里,躺在被窝里我真的有后悔的念头。但是无论如何人在砧板上了,不能不去了。

说实话,在北京的那一夜真的很难熬,好冷啊,老妈叫我带羽绒服我又是那么的不屑一顾。登机时,我又发扬了一次干什么比较快的优势,以迅雷不及掩耳盗铃响叮当之势坐在了我的座位上,环顾前面,后面,左面都是中国人,心里还盘算完了。没想到让人惊喜的是,一个老大叔George做在了我的身边,第一句话我对他说了“Hi”,他对我说了标准的农村腔“你好”。是他让我知道了原来福罗里达州并不是美国最南端的国土,还有一个什么小岛的,居然在Cuba的旁边,但是是美国的国土。我不仅感慨一句,这人要是命好你怎么都成。我们一路聊了很久,说实话一是我的英语真的不怎么样,二是他年纪却是大了,而且他说他会标准的法语,所以听他说英语的确有点累。估计就是老外听河南人说河南话吧,我们都能听懂,但是老外头就大了。而且一向认为自己具有super-ego 的我,居然一直认为从中国到芝加哥飞的是太平洋。还专门要了一个飞机右侧的座位就等着看看浩瀚的太平洋了,居然George告诉我是从北极走。太shit了,从北京直接到哈尔滨那嘎达飞了。

飞机上的生活真的太shit了,坐也不是,倚也不是,仰也不是。终于熬了块13个小时,到了芝加哥当地时间5:20,相机太shit了,先上一张芝加哥的晨景图吧。试试美帝国主义的网速和社会主义优越的网速的差距,是不是真像Obama所说的100年。
 靠,明明是99年,可恶的Obama居然给我们社会主义的伟大中国多算了一年,太坏了。
到了芝加哥以后,因为知道要出关很多麻烦的事情,我就又发挥了一下我人小,速度快,没行李的优势,在交I-94表的时候没有排队,等我等行李的时候,发现那个人山人海啊。嘿嘿,得意的笑,小样,和姐比,姐是干啥的,啥运动不会?本来想一路给我妈录像拍照的,但是赫然几个大字在墙上,No phone,No photos, No smoking,想起Obama说的Chinese should play by rules.我的耻辱心就发酵了,我也是守游戏规则的人。
虽然我做了芝加哥机场的图片,但是只是平面的,到了发现才是个晕头转向,谢谢George一家人对我的指点,万分感谢。有利有弊,是方便了自己,但是你还是对路标不熟悉,下次还是抓瞎,这就像是开车一样,你永远只是坐车,就永远不会记路。
猜猜这是什么?在芝加哥机场T3的H8坐前面的女卫生间里的东西。我上完厕所后研究了半天,显示用脚踩,后是用手压?
最后居然被我发现了,是一只手扒开一边,就可以打开的纸篓,我的天啊,谁上完厕所会这样做啊在中国。脏死了!

下面就是等Chicago到Tampa 的航班了,登机牌上写的是805AM。但是拖呀拖,拖了有一个小时多才起飞。By the way,芝加哥机场的安检真实先进极了,就像医院体检照胸透一样,人站在里面,举起双手,卡卡2秒钟出来,居然就把你全身上下细节完毕了,女保安指着我左面的裤兜里嘟囔了一句,我赶紧把钱拿出来澄清,急的居然说了一句chinese money.我真的太怂了。


我也是那种能躺着不会坐着,能坐着不会站着的人,在国内也都是飞。但是从来没有见过这么小的飞机,我一登机,居然左手边就是驾驶舱,shit,我一直以为每个飞机都有头等舱呢。好像就一个驾驶员吧。此时我拿出机票记录单,终于明白了MC 什么意思了,Micro微型飞机的意思吧?






美国的机场工作人员技术就是厉害,一个车头脱了那么多行李车,怪不得人家速率高呢,中国一个车头拖一个,咱这技术也不能拖多啊,动车拖的挺多,不就追尾了吗?这让我想起了北京的老式公交汽车,中间带个转接盘的那个,那个技术不是一般的。

然后在跑道上,看到了一个巨大的,吓我一跳。而且没有窗户,莫非是某某局长的专机?


让我们在看一下芝加哥的白天吧,不过今天天气一般般,有点小阴。



奇怪的事情发生了,这是什么?太美的云海了。







我真的不是天生的飞行家,像Jake Sully一样,我莫非已经得了高空幻觉症了,我这么觉得这4涨照片像是海上波涛汹涌的海浪,我当时就像吐了。



谁能告诉我这是什么? 麦田怪圈??不会吧?稻田?粮仓?军事基地?who can tell me?




我居然看见海岸线了,激动不已,我赶紧拿出美国地图,按chicago到Tampa 的直线距离飞行,不应该看到啊,我赶紧用了我的杀手锏“excuse me”问旁边的老兄,但是他居然也不知道这是哪里?他居然告诉我是在GA,我说我没有发现GA州有湖泊啊?然后他听了下机舱广播才说maybe mexico gulf.这地理还不如我这个老外呢。




像不像一个女儿穿着青色长袍仰卧在哪里,嘿嘿,我的想象力真实丰富。

莫非这就是传说中的Clearwater清水的白色沙滩?也算是去过了吧。嘿嘿
 根据飞行方向,这应该是St. Petersburg,飞行员的技术不是一般的,快把我转吐了。


 这是什么,按照地图,应该是美军在Tampa的美军基地。

我看了半天才看明白,这是如何的布局,游艇别墅区吧?


注意到没有,后面还有2个桥,这就是3个链接tampa 和clearwater 的3座桥。

Tampa airport,看平面地图很简单,但是层数众多,头晕转向。谢谢小胖丫头White Eimy.
最终在机场工作人员的指引下,我终于上了No.30 bus,不得不说美国的黑妹妹人都很热心。沿途也上来了10余人,但是都是最最最最底层的人,拾荒者,保洁工等。美国给了他们这些人活下去的勇气。
PS:好玩的是,美国政府为了鼓励大家积极投票,居然巴士上贴出公告在Nov.6当天,拿投票单可以免费做Bus一天。
今天真的是不容易的一天,感谢今天遇见的所有帮助过我的人,无论是白的,黑的还是花的。你们让我感受颇多。我内心感激你们八倍祖宗,同时,我也希望我的这次痛苦的晕机过程是值得的,我能够成功说服Beverly and Barry.如果真的失败了,我真的觉得我没有勇气在这样折腾了,真的太累了,不知道这个秘密还要继续保持多久,女人们还要傻多久?

2012年10月27日星期六

What exactly drive human move on?

Without a doubt, human is the smartest animal on earth, even though we are not the oldest animal on earth. Apparently, human have evolved a very different route from all non-human animals. I wonder what exactly set us on the path to humanity and what exactly drive human move on in future?

Someone described human progress speed like this: at the beginning, human crawled on the ground for many years, then stood up and walked, and ran in the latest 500 years, and flew in latest 100 years. I don’t know what verb I should use to describe human future after the fly. In my opinion, there are two aspects evolution on human evolutionary way, one is in human physiology, the evolution of body is very slow, we are almost as same as our ancestor 500 years ago, even 2000 years ago, and there is no big difference in body; the other one is in human psychology, compared to the slight evolution of our human body, our psychological evolution is very huge. it is relevant to an important but not completely solved human subjects: Evolutionary Psychology(EP). You can’t imagine that today there also have big gap during human being on same earth and same time, because of some system. There are about three-hundred years gap during two group of people, French send their King on the guillotine in the 18 th century, but today North Korean also swear to defend their fat Kim, although there is no any difference during the body evolution between France and North Korean. Till now, many people are not able to figure out the relationship of citizen, country and political parties. I guess if Father of the Nation Sun Yat-sen is still alive, he must cry to death for the servility of his descendants 100 years later. So I can conclude that the psychological evolution lagged far behind in the physiological evolution.

If I want to talk about body and soul, I must talk about Rene Descartes and his Dualism first. Rene Descartes explicitly asked a question ”are humans merely physical machines, merely physical things”, he answered “No”, and he agreed that animals are machines. In fact, he called them “beast machines”. he said animals, non-human animals are merely robots, but people are different. There is a duality of people. Like animals, we possess physical meterial bodies, but unlike animals, what we are is not physical. We are immaterial souls that possess physical bodies, that have physical bodies, that reside in physical bodies, that connect to physical bodies. He claimed that for humans at least, there are two separate things, there is our material bodies and there is our immaterial minds.

Frankly speaking, I don’t agree with Descartes 100%, but I don’t agree with this view “people are nothing more than machine of meat” at all. While I agree that the history is always changed by a small group of people, and truth always rests with the minority, and the minority is always stronger than the majority, because the minority is generally formed by those who really have an opinion, while the strength of a majority is illusory, formed by the gangs who have no opinion. Majority usually didn't’ work in human progress, even retroaction, otherwise Giordano Bruno was not burned to death in the Square of the Flowers in 1600.

There is no denying that human indeed went on a specail way separated from other species, and what exactly drive us to move on? Adam Smith in “The Wealth of Nations” proposed an term “invisible hand” to describe the natural force that guides free market capitalism through competition for scarce resources. I believe there must have an “invisible hand” in human evolution to drive human move on, and I call it “Self-awareness”. When an individual pursues his/her self-awareness, he/she indirectly promotes the evolution of human. It shows that unity of sciences and social sciences again. In my opinion, the basic instinct to drive human evolution is the awakening of human "Self-awareness". I like these words very much “We, alone on earth, can rebel against the tyranny of the selfish replicators. Self-cognition allows us to realize that our own interests can well be in conflict with the interests of our genes” by Richard Dawkins in “The Selfish Gene”. It means we are not genetically manipulated, we still have souls, rather than mere reproduction, this is the real meaning of life. All non-human animal behaviors are for survival and reproduction, human already luckily started to think separation from the endless proliferation of activities to think about value of life.(PS: just male, but not female)

There are many phenomena which can show the similarity and difference between human behavior and non-human behavior, that is why I do not agree with David Buss on his theory of Evolutionary Psychology. In his theory, human are just machine of meat, men want to spread their genes to find women as many as possible, women want to survive to find a rich and powerful men as possible as they can. This is just the logic of non-human, not human being.

1, Female non-human animals are only capable of mating and producing young once a year during their oestrus period, which lasts for only a few weeks. There is no doubt that the only purpose why animals mating is reproduction, at least for female, while some male animals also want to mate when not in female estrus period, they will suffer the vicious attacks from female. This demonstrates that some male non-human animals have began the consciousness which is to get rid of reproduction to pursue sexual pleasure, while females still in the reproduction cycle.

Apparently, male human have been out of the reproduction trap, and they have self-awareness to mate for pursuing sexual pleasure, not only for reproduction. In many developed countries, more and more men choose vasectomies to prevent wives getting pregnant. Do these men's libido reduce, because of they lose the ability of reproduction? Definitely not. I think lots of men don’t remind reproduction, when they during a sex. Unfortunately, women not only take the responsibility for human reproduction as same as female non-human animals, but also become sex slaves during non-oestrus period, after the awakening of male human self-awareness. Freud stated in his “three essays on the theory of sexuality” in 1905 “The vagina has value only as a receptacle for the penis.” He is right, but women still expect to get so-called multiple orgasms depending on their useless receptacles.

Some evolutionary scientists proposed that the reason why men need to mate in any time is because of the poor living conditions of children, and a lot of children died when in young age, so men have to evolve the characteristics that men want to plant the seed in any time. I think it is a stupid view. The population of species depends on the number of reproductive female during this species, not the male, evermore, it is not helpful to have sex during female non-oestrus period. We can imagine that if only 3.5 billion men and only one woman left on the world, even the 3.5 billion men are constantly intercourse with the woman, in second year, will there be 3.5 billion children born? No, definitely not. Many Mammals also have one-child once as same as human, but they are still only in estrus mating. Chimpanzees are the most relatives of human, but they still mate during female oestrus period. Such an argument is absolutely ridiculous, just make excuses for selfish genes of male.

Another question: masturbation and oral sex also happen during non-human animals, but mostly in viviparous animals. From other side, it also reflects the different species have different evolution.

2,Id, Ego, Superego

Freud (1925) has repeatedly expressed the opinion that on the average, the female superego , compared with that of the male, is organized rather weakly, is unstable, and has no independence. Generally speaking, he wanted to say that females do not have strong Super-Egos. I hate to admit, but I have to admit that situation.

The id is the unorganized part of the personality structure that contains a human's basic, instinctual drives, and acts according to the "pleasure principle", seeking to avoid pain or displeasure aroused by increases in instinctual tension. I think it is the primitive form of “Maximize my payoff and minimize my cost” from animals basic instinct. Full life is dominated by the survival and reproduction.

In my opinion, the ego showed up when human self-awareness start occurrence. People start to have sense of shame, passion, disappointment, helplessness and sadness so on and so forth, what called as human feeling, but people are still in a state of ignorance, they don’t know what exactly they want and what exactly other people want, and they can’t put themselves into other people's shoes. Someone start to explore the world and our own, but in ego phase, due to the limitations of human understanding, there are full of lies and deception. Human try to establish so-called game rules to make human to be a moral height, whatever in social system, or psychologically, but with very little effect. Because human nature can’t be changed by anything or anyone, the result is under the guise of communism, someone treated people as tyranny, and under the guise of marriage, someone cheated on the partner.

Superego, it is that stage human awareness reaches a certain height. First, we have to admit the nature of human-selfish. Second, we establish a set of rules to protect everyone legitimate interests under the Id satisfaction, of course we really have to know what we want. We have empathy and can deal with the interests conflict correctly and rationally between two groups, and achieve a balance in the interests of our own and others or individual interests and ethnic interests. Of course, Superego can not work without the progress of science and philosophy. Natural science goes first, human know why water flows down, and why sun rises everyday, so humans began to look at the world with rational eyes. Philosophy of science is the next one. “The Wealth of Nations” by Adam Smith, and “Separation of powers” by Montesquieu occurrence. These are derived from research of human nature. They were all trying to find the nature of human being(Id), and then build game rules to protect basic human right. What is superego? Thomas Hobbes kept trying to develop a theory of society which begins actually with biology, with biological processes, and build it up gradually from biology to understanding of the social, of the individual, and from the individual to understand society. He is right, and what Hobbes tried to do is to find human superego depending on the human Id.

This theory of Id, Ego and Superego is proposed by Freud, there is no doubt that he thought he had superego of course. Now let’s see the whole life of the man who had Superego. Freud was also a very difficult person to get along, he basically has fallouts with every body, and maybe he thought other people were all stupid and can’t understand his ideas. The same things also happened on Newton, if we search the history of human, we can find that the same things happened almost on everyone who changed human history, because those people who can change the world are very few, in the eyes of the general public, they are inverse. They are alone in soul.

If Frued still alive, I want to tell him fact to face that the beginning of female superego will start as revolt to male sex dictatorship. As a male, I don’t know whether he still go to point out that cruel fact women don’t have superego, and let later generation unlock it. I agree with John Stuart Mill on his point that “women are actually worse in their conditions than slaves, because men expect women even love, rather than just obedience, at least from slaves they don’t expect love” in “The Subjection of Women” (according to the open course from Yale: Foundations of Modern Social Theory). Mill felt that the oppression of women was one of the few remaining relics from ancient times, a set of prejudices that severely impeded the progress of humanity.

In human history, we never stop searching world outside, as same as human ourselves, especially in recent 500 years.

In the 15th century, from Columbus discovered the American continent to Magellan's voyage around the world, it is the first time to prove that the Earth is round. Nicolaus Copernicus first proposed “heliocentric” to replace "geocentric". These ruthless facts deny our superiority complex that our human being is the center of the universe.

In the 18 th century, Darwin's Theory Of Evolution first broke down the Myth of God created man, although there are still some problem we can’t use the theory to explain well, but this is first time that our human is liberated from theological shackles.

In human evolutionary way, we go forward step by step slowly and firmly to future, all by our human self-awareness awakening.

Human goes step by step, slowly and firmly into the future on the road, all by human self-awareness drive human move on. In the era of President George Washington, you can’t imagine that an African-American was elected to be President, but Obama did that. Condoleezza Rice was the first female African-American secretary of state, as well as the second African American (after Colin Powell), and the second woman (after Madeleine Albright). Rice was President Bush's National Security Advisor during his first term, making her the first woman to serve in that position. I believe that we will see that an Asian-American or female also appear in the President of United States. Because the election a President doesn’t depend on the color of his skin, sex, high or short, fat or thin, sexual orientation, but the concept of his/her governance. Let’s wait and see.